Don't get me wrong, I am breathing in a sigh of relief. We have, after 2 years made it farther in this adoption journey than ever before. Call it doubt or perhaps just being plain 'ol realistic because my whole heart just simply isn't rejoicing today. She isn't home in my arms yet. Until that happens, until I know she isn't some far off distant dream, this momma's heart won't be completely satisfied.
I think I finally understand why other mommas say this part is the hardest. E is finally my daughter and she is half a world away. I can't hear her laughing in the other room or upstairs fighting with her brother. Right now my heart feels a little empty wondering if she has enough food in her belly this very moment. Does she ever get her boo boos kissed or someone to snuggle with? I pray God somehow prepares her heart for the big changes about to come her way. No matter what her living conditions now, she is a happy girl. She has friends and caretakers and all that is about to be taken from her. She will be whisked away on a plane and brought into a whole new world. My heart aches for that day, but also know that is a lot for a little heart to deal with.
Is this post going anywhere? :) I'm realizing just how many thoughts are swirling around in my head now that this precious little girl is my precious little girl. The little life God had planned to intertwine with mine before I even set foot on this earth. Adoption is sad but also so, so beautiful. I'm so thankful God broke our heart for what breaks his.
Soon we will get our CONA (certificate of non appeal), which will allow us to file our I-600. We will be applying for E's passport, visa, and exit letter. Now that she is ours we will be working hard to get her home! Please pray for the process to go smoothly and for E's little heart as her world is about to be rocked. Thank you for all the encouragement, prayers and support you've provided to our family.
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